‘Every sunset gives us one day less to live but every sunrise gives us one more day to hope, So always hope for the best’ – Anon.
8th April 2015. That was the last day I blogged. It was the day where belief was there and I was in the zone. Things have dwindled and this post is not what you’re used to.
I’d like to thank you all for persevering with me, continuously supporting Sazzle’s blog and sticking by me.
Today I’ve decided that Sazzle’s blog must resume and that life must go on.
Over the past seven months my life has changed somewhat and I would hope that upon reading this that you understand and respect my privacy to all involved therefore thank you all in advance and ask that all refrain from posting my private life onto social media.
Eight months ago decisions were made to which my husband and I amicably separated, are currently going through a divorce leaving my cat Benny to live at the home where he belongs with my ex husband and for me to start a fresh in my new home.
My intention is not to bad mouth anyone as my ex husband has supported me thoroughout myEpilepsy journey and that’s the way it ought to be. It’s the way it should be.
In situations like these I have chosen to briefly discuss my private life as that is my business but to elaborate on how it has effected my condition in order to spread awareness.
In times such as the following my Epilepsy has been tried and tested with stress coming to the forefront and testing my endurance.
The shakes have been overwhelming and I’ve had many bridges to cross, Many challenges ahead; and that’s normal.
Stress at any time in your lifetime can take hold and make you see that life isn’t easy, that decisions have to be made to enable you to move forward and to see that when the shit hits the fan it can quite literally.. Hit the fan and make you wonder why you feel a certain way.
Over the past few months I’ve geared myself up to ending one decade and beginning another not because I’m not thankful or resentful but because I know there’s hope in every situation whether it revolves around my Epilepsy or not.
As I read today’s quote I realise that as I look to each sunset that doors open and close in our lives to which some of the time we have no control.
The same has applied with my shakes and emotions over the years. I have no control it’s operated however as I’ve said repeatedly attitude plays a major role to which I have to remain positive.
My intention now is to continue doug what I’ve always done and that is to speed epilepsy awareness to the max by blogging about my own personal journey and supporting others.
Life ain’t easy it’s downright difficult and there’s bound to be obstacles you’d rather not face however it’s how you represent yourself is key.
Life isn’t about scoring brownie points or comparing your own issues against another it’s about realising that every experience has it’s own merit and whether it be good or bad it’s an experience in itself that we all learn from.
On 5th June I became 30 years of age and looked at the past decade with smiles and acceptance.
My Epilepsy has in the past made me question who I am and whether in times of need whether I’ll ever continue remaining positive to which I can say that I try. I try everyday.
Hoping for the best is not a bad thing. It makes you see that life is for living, for loving and for sharing. You aren’t the only one with this quest we are all hoping for the same.
On a lighter note..
I’ve joined an exercise group at my local exercise studio to which I’m doing new exercises such as pound , bokwa and kettlebells. (If you ain’t seen any check them out on YouTube immediately and get involved!).
It’s opened my eyes immensely to see that you are entitled to meet new people and break the barriers you set for yourself. That’s how you learn, it’s how you grow and learn new things.
See yourself as strong instead of weak and realise that you have a voice to which you can match anyone in that room as long as you have the right approach.
As for new challenge work is work, I’m meeting up more with family and friends and realising that support is a round me always as it can be around you.
To conclude today’s post. It’s been too long since I’ve written a post to you guys. Everyday we hope, we hope for a cure, we hope for more awareness to be spread but ultimately we repeatedly hope for that happier life.
We are strong, we are resilient we are us.